It is occurring to me more and more that I really enjoy this blogging idea.
Things just keep coming up that, from my view, seem to be a good topic for a blog; Not just because I am going through it, but thus far, I see God working in it also, and what better way to show Him off then by writing about it and letting you all read.
Since my last post, a lot has happened in my heart. Right around Christ-mas, Luke had surgery for a Hydrocele. We actually thought it was a hernia, but we are thankful that it was not really a big deal. He got up from surgery, and had ZERO pain from then on!
At the same time, I had been dealing with my own health "issues". For months now, I have been struggling with pressure in my sinus' and fluid in my ears, I had a Ct Scan done to look at the sinus cavities and it showed mild sinusitis and a cyst. I then had an MRI done to find out more about this cyst.
To make the story short, I was freaking out inside for a week and a half, not knowing what would have to be done about this cyst. The cyst, 4-5 mm around, is a benign arachnoid cyst, sitting there in the meninges around my brain.
Through the waiting period, my mind was getting the "best" of me, all I could think of was: I have a cyst. In my brain. What? It was something I could barely process. What did that mean? What would happen? Surgery? Shunt? Cancer? Death? (ok maybe my mind got carried away) but the Lord used that in me.
Life seemed MUCH shorter and faster moving for me, and the fact that I lazily went about my days and months just waiting for something great to happen, really haunted me. What am I doing with the life God has so graciously given to me? It reminds me of this verse:
"For what is your life? It is even a vapor that appears for a little time and then vanishes away." James 4:14
As depressing as that can seem, it is true. Our lives are just vapors in the wind. A flower that appears for a season and is gone. Only when something desperate happens with our health or physical well being (or somebody we love) are we reminded that we really will die someday.
During this scary trial and many others that I have had, I asked the Lord to have mercy on me! And He has... every time WITHOUT FAIL. I am not sure why either, because I know I do not deserve it. I am thankful nonetheless to say that He has granted me mercy and He has spared me from having to do anything for the cyst - it will just live there until I die.
In the mean time I have been reminded with a new perspective. Life changes in an INSTANT. All it takes is one phone call or one second for everything to change. We are to live for Him and I don't know what that looks like for you completely or even fully for me, but I know He is moving in my life.
"...The God who made the world and everything in it, being Lord of heaven and earth, does not live in temples made by man, nor is He served by human hands, as though He needed anything, since He Himself gives to all mankind life and breath and everything. And He made from one man every nation of mankind to live on all the face of the earth, having determined allotted periods and the boundaries of their dwelling place, that they should seek God, and perhaps feel their way toward Him and find Him. Yet He is actually not far from each one of us." Acts 17:24-27
No matter where He has you, rich or poor, sick or healthy, in any circumstance, we are there so that we should seek Him!
